she is actually a lot more expressive, why don't you search for her EP

by the verlived orchestra

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released June 21, 2015

Written by the verlived orchestra
Engineered and produced by the verlived orchestra
Vocals / Guitars / Bass / Programming by Dimaz Ramadhan Putra
Drums by EZRobo
Shit Gimmicks by XioRobo
Additional Vocals on "you are the only cashew nut that give me happiness, it is in your name" by no one
Late Night Coffee by no one
Promotions by no one

Artwork photos by Mr. Budi Surachmat
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Recorded at inkime records
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Track Name: Part I: New Year
It isn't your wish, but you should leave. And drown all your dreams to march forward. It will never be right. Also your 'one-year domination' seemed so short. The stars will be something you always want to catch. But, you always get grounded. You wish you were born many years after 1998.
Track Name: 48 Hearths of Kids Talk, 8 Teams and a Captain
For the sake of god, i swear you'll be fine. But, it was me. It was me. You're the pain i tasted. I dreamt about you, but what was it you meant in that dream? You were leaning on this chest. Yes, your body was.
Everything will be there. But, can i reach my time? Can i arrive at the right time? Can i even be there? Or can i say that you're the only person that i wish to walk as the bride of mine in my future?
I do imagine you walking in that white dress. And the innocence of yours.
And my tears are still falling to keep it here. Though i'm not losing you. and then you go with someone else from your school. Realizing that i'm not around. I'll never be.
I've been dancing through days.
A dream is a start where everything is real, right? Yes, and i'm short-minded.
Who is the person you wish to be yours? Call your dorm, and i'm sorry. It's you, until now. And ill keep questioning, will god let you talk to me or keep the answers in his own knowing.
Track Name: you are the only cashew nut that give me happiness, it is in your name
Fresh water will never fill out this thirst. Since everyone is trying to be there. You hold on to the thoughts they've made. Then the route changes. It doesn't appear in my eyes. It's not safe for my eyes. But, I'll be the ghost in all your thoughts. I am the fucking ghost that always want you safe and vision your dreams. Please, don't ever give all your true things. cause you can't.

Please keep her safe, majesty.
Kashiwa Yukina's Graduation Letter:

Until now, Thank you

Approximately, two and a half years of me being a member of Nogizaka46.
It seemed be long and instant.
The event since the audition floats like a revolving lantern now.

Graduation is decided before 7th production period begins and I wanted to tell you early, but it becomes last-minute then, i'm sorry.

Balance work with school is hard for me after the 3rd single.

"You're not going in senbatsu"

Seems there is no help for it while I have to go to a public high school.

But, in the end, with my fullest heart, I am sorry for everybody encouraging in the handshake event.

"You only have a little talent, and you want to face the entertainment world?" I let it pass with my lack of confidence.

When my friends are trying to put themself to an exam, I think about the same way too. I decided to participate in university examination sometime.

But, it's hard to maintain the examination with the activity of Nogizaka.

Now, I go to the university as a scholarship student.
Have any good and steady results is necessary to continue going to school as a scholarship student. By the way, my major is teaching profession

Being far apart cause the college life that I imagined before. I didn't feel good, cause I'm not able to participate in every Nogizaka activity

Because, there is a condition I need to take, and a place where I think to spent my future is waiting for me. You should know that, It's not a big dream. But, I may feel it myself when it's lost

I do concentrate on my study. Then, I want to work on various things that I can do as a student. Positively, from now on.

I am proud that I've belonged to the wonderful group called Nogizaka46 and making some experience.

These two and a half years for me have become an irreplaceable treasure.

The hard thing is saying goodbye to everybody whom always welcomed me here.

Thank you, all my deepest gratitude.

And please always support Nogizaka46.

Thank you very much for all the fans who have supported me this far.

Kashiwa Yukina